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A while ago i was placed in a position where there was only one thing in this world that i wished for.  That, as horrible and mindlessly cruel as it may sound, was for the life of one person to come crashing down on top of them in retaliation for what they had put me through.  For them to be reduced to a level close to what i felt i had been reduced to.  

Well my fellow Deviantart artists....This blog is simply here to tell you that, as i am sure you have been told before, That you should be careful in what you wish for.  Recently...this wish of mine came true.  The person i so desired to see crumble has done so and, as shocking as it sounds, i feel none of the feelings i expected myself to feel.  I pity the person, i sympathize with them one hundred percent as i know how they are feeling.  This is where my confusion comes in.  This person reduced me to an emotional and physically broken wreck....so why am i not happy that my wish has come true.  Was my wish at the time just a hollow attempt at making myself feel better or was this something that even eighteen months after the incident, is something that i never truly wanted.  

I know that this person means nothing to me at this point any more and in fact they haven't meant anything to me in a long time now.  I feel nothing but dislike and agitation towards this person.  So once again....why, now that this wish has come true, do i feel none of the originally desired emotions that should have been associated with the wish.  

Maybe all this confusion will be cleared up in due time...on the other hand maybe it won't.  Maybe i will be left on this world for the unforeseeable future trying to determine why this dream,  one of the only ones which has come true, has left me feeling nothing short of disappointed.  

This emotional rant was brought to you by your friendly neighborhood hells-disasterpiece
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Well folks it's time for yet another journal entry made by hells-disasterpiece that i am sure no one will read or comment on.  This one contains an account of my trip to Glasgow on Sunday to see the Death Metal band Suicide Silence perform in The Garage on Sauchiehall Street.  

The journey down was fantastic as i made my way to Glasgow Queen Street Station by train departing from my home town of Inverness at 12:45.  Myself and a fellow Suicide Silence fan had reserved seats but they were taken from us by someone who refused to give them to us.  I had a couple of drinks on the train and arrived in Glasgow fairly merry and good willed.  After checking in to my hostel and dumping my bags i met up with a couple of my other friends and went for Drinks at Solid Rock Cafe.  A metal and Rock Cafe which looks and sounds scarily similar to the Hard Rock Cafe, just a little cheaper and less merchandise on the walls.  

When we arrived at the concert we dumped our jackets and made our way in to the venue just in time to see the first supporting band Black Tongue begin their set. Black Tongue, a UK originated Death Metal band, performed six absolutely crushing songs which took the crowd from a standstill to a sea of testosterone infused maniacs plowing into each other without any regards for their own safety.  These guys looked and sounded the part and are not a band to be ignored.  As this was my first time seeing and hearing them i did not know any of their material but that did not matter as they left me with the motivation to go away and learn the lyrics and sounds to as many of their songs as possible.  Roughly half way through their performance i exited the hall for some fresh air and was encountered by Eddie Herminez of Suicide Silence.  I asked him if it would be OK to have a photo taken with him and he said yes (Which is a miracle since he was in the middle of eating that the time ). 

Next up was USA based band "Fit For An Autopsy"....ladies and gentlemen these lads are beyond amazing.  Their music is top notch and their crowd presence is unbelievable.  The singer interacted with the crowd urging them to open up as many pits as possible and that is exactly what we did.  The effort and dedication put into all six of their songs by each member of the band was inspiring.  Although they were not as heavy as Black Tongue they certainly came close.  If anything i actually preferred FFAA to BT purely because of their sound and presence.  

The last supporting band of the night was the very much anticipated and highly regarded "Thy Art Is Murder".  an Australian originating band who i have heard so much about in the past year and a half.  The singer emerged last on stage dressed in a hooded sweatshirt which made him resemble members of Polish Death metal band Behemoth.  This brought an eerie presence to the room but did not stop the crowd from raising the roof.  This was yet another band of which i had not had much chance to listen to, i did however know one song of which they played that night which was "Reign of Darkness".  TAIM urged the crowd to get involved and were thoroughly impressed with the reaction they received.  They asked everyone to show their appreciation for BT and FFAA as well as our excitement for Suicide Silence who were due to take to the stage in a very short time.  TAIM is yet another band of which i would urge any metal fan to go out and listen to.  Their crushing vocals and devastating guitar riffs is not something that will leave you feeling disappointed.  

And now the time had come.  The stage lights dimmed and the crowd went silent.  After a few moments of anticipation Suicide Silence drummer Alex Lopez burst onto the stage followed by guitarists Mark Heylum and Chris "The Animal" Garza.  the trio were soon joined by bassist Daniel Kenny and later, after much chanting by the crowd who screamed the words "Here we, Here we , Here we fucking go" Eddie Herminez, frontman of Suicide Silence emerged bringing the crowd to a roaring mess of excitement.  It was no time at all before SS burst into their first song of the night "Inherit The Crown" causing the crowd to jump up as high as they can and open up mosh and circle pits larger than what was made for any other band that night.  As the crowd screamed the lyrics Suicide Silence's stage presence could only be described as having the energy of a jackrabbit on cocaine.  Eddie was seen as not disappointing the reputation he had brought with him to the UK and as they entered the second song "Cease To Exist" The crowd's energy did nothing but heighten.  The remainder of their set list only got better with every song.  With old school SS songs such as No pity for a Coward, Disengage, Wake up, Slaves to Substance, Smoke, Fuck Everything and Bludgeoned to Death, being combined with material off of their new album entitled "You Can't Stop Me", songs including their two opening tracks of the performance , Sacred words and You Can't Stop Me.  This set list was one that created a sense of euphoria among the crowd.  Suicide Silence concluded the performance and the night with their well known, crowd pleasing, mosh pit starting, neck breaking, bone cracking and concussion causing song "You Only Live Once".  As the crowd and myself chanted along with Eddie and headbanged with what little strength we had left i achieved a sense of happiness and being that i had never before felt.  As the performance came to a close the crowd showed their appreciation one final time and made their way out of the venue.  

The ending of this concert was by no means the end of the fun and surprising events for me of the evening.  As i made my way to the opposite side of the street to a bar in which played live open mic blues, jazz and rock music i sat with my friends drinking white russians and vodka shots until i could no longer stand up.  After roughly an hour of drinking i made my way to a local chip shop where i stuffed my stomach with food in order to allow me to continue drinking.  On the way back to the bar we walked past a club entitled Nice 'N Sleazy outside which stood a long haired man smoking a vaporiser.  As i drew level to the man i realised that it was Daniel Kenny, the bassist of Suicide Silence.  As i stood talking to the man of which i had idolised in Suicide Silence ever since i started listening to them i notice another man draw level with us.  This man was none other than Chris Garza.  Words could not describe the excitement and awe that i found myself in as i begged both men for a photograph to be taken after which we got to talking about the span of Suicide Silence's career and how much their music had meant to me and my friends and just how amazing not only their other concerts had been but how amazingly they had played that night.  

As i departed for the bar to end the course of my night i could nto believe what had just happened.  I had now, by this point met three of the members of one of my favorite bands by complete accident.  Could the night have gotten any better.....i do not think so.  
Hey there guys its Hells-disasterpiece here.  

Today has been an absolute bloodbath of a day.  This morning i had the Pre test for my Third Dan Testing in Tang Soo Do.  For those of you who might not know what a pre test is then let me explain.  A pre test is a preliminary testing that all candidates who aim to go for black belt or to get their next dan grade have to go through in order for their instructors to see if they are good enough to go for the actual testing ( think of it as the preliminary round of the chuunin exams in Naruto Unleashed lol ).  This exam is conducted throughout two hours in which we go through a quick warm up , an intense Physical assessment, Line work where we demonstrate required kicking , blocking and punching techniques asked by the panel, we then demonstrate all of our traditional forms and weapon forms and if there is any time left we demonstrate the self defense techniques that the panel ask us to.  

So after all those two hours of intense physical beasting drenched in sweat from head to toe and with blisters on the soles of my feet ( i HATE wooden floors now ) i was told that i had passed the pre test and that i was being invited to the official third dan testing on the sixth of december.  Here's the shit kicker on this one though.  As if i didnt think that this testing ( Two hours long )was bad enough i then realised that the official testing is FOUR hours long.......F**K me DEAD!!!!!!.   So anyway i got home at roughly half two and then realised i have a university level essay to do for monday morning.  So for the past three hours i have been sat slaving away at this essay which is designed to explain whether it was the kings or nobles who possessed the greatest amount of power throughout fifteenth century Scotland.....Yeah i know right, what every nineteen year old guy wants to be spending his saturday night doing aint it.  

So long story short version.  I am absolutely exhausted and i am only half way through the essay......Y'know what....F**K it.  Im gonna do the first half tonight, second half tomorrow night ( After work) and then do the ammendments on Monday morning before i send it off for marking.

Hope you guys are having a better saturday night than i am guys

HD out 
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What is the worst pain known to humanity.....Men will say it is getting kicked in the crotch whereas women will undoubtedly say it's childbirth....Well I'm here to tell you...You're all WRONG .   The worst pain in humanity is to have to sit there knowing that someone you care about more than anything else in life is suffering and that there is nothing you can do to help or ease their pain.  Watching them go through their days where a frown of unbearable pain has replaced a smile of absolute joy.  

The pain you feel when a tear emerges from their eye and all you want to do is make the bastard that put them in this position pay for what they have done.  To make them stand and watch what they have made your loved one go through.  To put them through even a small amount of the pain that your friend or family member is feeling because of them.

You sit alone at night praying that tomorrow will be the day where your loved one awakens without tear marks on their cheeks, Without those bloodshot eyes and the sense of emptiness inside.

But in the end.  When you know and accept that there is nothing that you can do to help them except from be there for them and comfort them.  The pain you yourself feel begins to die.

So to all those who believe that there are other answers to that question.  I urge you to withhold judgement until you have found yourself in the situation where someone you love is crying themselves to sleep every night.  Waking up with black bags under their eyes from lack of sleep and going to work looking like an empty shell of what they used to be.  Wait until you have had to sit through watching them bear this pain knowing that there is nothing you can do to solve it.  Then....and ONLY then will you know what the truest and deepest pain in humanity is.
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just a short upload this time based around that feeling everyone will have either felt or will eventually feel when someone they love and hold dear to them is going through hell.  
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Well guys I'm back.  As some of you may have known ( if you read my previous journal entry ) I was away in London this past weekend representing Scotland at the Tang Soo Do European Championships.  This was the biggest tournament of the season and all i can say is what a fantastic end to the competitive year.  The competition spanned over the Saturday and Sunday.  The Saturday leg of the tournament was opened up by a demonstration by World-wide known martial artists and successful stunt actress Chloe Bruce.  The demonstration blew everyone away and she continued to show how much of an inspiration she is to the martial arts generations.  

During the course of the Saturday i managed to gain four medals.  I managed to pick up a silver for my traditional forms, a silver for my Chil Sung form category, a third place for my bo Staff category and a gold for my Sword category.  Needless to say i was over the moon by this point as i did  not expect to gain anywhere near as much success as i did.  

The Sunday leg of the Tournament was the sparring categories, a category of which ( in all due respect and honesty ) i am USELESS at.  this year marked the seventh consecutive year in which i have been unable to win a SINGLE sparring match during a competition.  But this tournament was the break in the chain.  On Sunday i won silver for my sparring category by beating one of the Greek team and also losing to another Greek team member.  This was what made me the happiest.  The whole team were congratulating me but i knew that the happiness i showed myself was the one that mattered.  

Overall the competition was a bit of a disaster.  No organisation done what so ever, categories were getting created thirty seconds before they were being ran and people were being missed out of categories that they should have been in.. On top of that was all of the political crap between countries.  Dont get me wrong it was a good competition and it was funny to see different competitors from different countries going at each other's throats.....i just wished that those who did had a little bit more honor and respect so not to show up their country like that.  

That's all for now guys.  Stay tuned for more updates in the life of HD 

HD out 
A while ago i was placed in a position where there was only one thing in this world that i wished for.  That, as horrible and mindlessly cruel as it may sound, was for the life of one person to come crashing down on top of them in retaliation for what they had put me through.  For them to be reduced to a level close to what i felt i had been reduced to.  

Well my fellow Deviantart artists....This blog is simply here to tell you that, as i am sure you have been told before, That you should be careful in what you wish for.  Recently...this wish of mine came true.  The person i so desired to see crumble has done so and, as shocking as it sounds, i feel none of the feelings i expected myself to feel.  I pity the person, i sympathize with them one hundred percent as i know how they are feeling.  This is where my confusion comes in.  This person reduced me to an emotional and physically broken wreck....so why am i not happy that my wish has come true.  Was my wish at the time just a hollow attempt at making myself feel better or was this something that even eighteen months after the incident, is something that i never truly wanted.  

I know that this person means nothing to me at this point any more and in fact they haven't meant anything to me in a long time now.  I feel nothing but dislike and agitation towards this person.  So once again....why, now that this wish has come true, do i feel none of the originally desired emotions that should have been associated with the wish.  

Maybe all this confusion will be cleared up in due time...on the other hand maybe it won't.  Maybe i will be left on this world for the unforeseeable future trying to determine why this dream,  one of the only ones which has come true, has left me feeling nothing short of disappointed.  

This emotional rant was brought to you by your friendly neighborhood hells-disasterpiece
HD out  

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Rhys Davies
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hey guys. im an artistic student who mainly focuses on sketches and designs. im an insane character. anyone on here that has met me will verify that ha ha ha ha. im very keen on my art and often create emotional pieces

im into heavy metal such as slipknot , slayer , upon a burning body , as i lay dying and five finger death punch. i like horrors such as grave encounters and paranormal activity. i play manhunt occasionally which is a great game to play at night as it tests your senses and running and hiding skills.

when im drawing i like to listen to music so that i can zone out of the world and concentrate more on what i am drawing.
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Thank you so much for the fave :D 
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Hello.  Sorry to bother you but I am trying to create a new group dedicated to Original Literature and wondered if you would be interested in joining?

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I know that we are a bit short of members right now, but I am hoping that people will soon join and the fun and games can begin!  You are also more than welcome to submit your written work to our gallery.

I hope that you will consider joining us soon.  If not, I apologise for taking up your wall space
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i shall check out your group and get back to you soon might take a couple days but i will definitely get back to you 
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^_^  I have sent you an invitation so that you only need to click to accept if you fancy joining us.  We would be glad to have you ^_^
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no problem always nice to add fellow talented deviants to my list

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